I have reached a milestone! How did I celebrate? Honestly, I completely forgot today marked one month without alcohol, until fifteen minutes ago. How does it feel? I am proud of myself. The improvements in my day-to-day life are piling up. My self-image has skyrocketed, and I can say for the first time in my twenties I think I really like who I am becoming.

Are there still bad days? Hell yes, there are bad days and there are days where I question this commitment I made. But this commitment is a promise I made to myself to do better and be better. A commitment to grow and find peace and joy. You attract what you are and all that self-help stuff. I want to be a magnet for positivity and joy.

If I was still drinking and had a different reason to celebrate today, I would have ordered thirty dollars’ worth of fast food and mindlessly eaten. Then I would have immediately gone to sleep, with a stomach full of wine and fried chicken. I would’ve woken up at two am with night sweats and crippling anxiety. Instead, I’ve taken care of my body today. Given it actual fuel. I can predict I will sleep at least eight hours and if I wake up at two, it’ll be straight back to sleep.

This month has been challenging, but I did it! The only way out is through. The only way to the beautiful life I want is to live through the life altering change of my shitty habits. I will wake up tomorrow morning and start month two. And on we go.

Life can be really good, I wish I could tell month ago me that we made it this far!